An Indonesian perspective on madness in a globalizing world (22 min)

The film focuses on Bambang Rudjito, a university-educated Indonesian man in his late thirties diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. It explores the “globalized” features of Bambang’s illness and recovery narrative — western psychiatric diagnostics and pharmaceuticals, work opportunities in a rapidly changing urban environment, participation in an interfaith religious community, and his family’s understanding and acceptance of what Bambang describes as a “mental disability.”

But it also considers aspects of Bambang’s more complex, historically and politically shaded narrative, giving language and a deeper substance to his illness experience. Memory of My Face illustrates how the residues of colonialism and the pervasive influence of globalization affect the subjective experience of mental illness.

According to the doctor, I suffered from schizo...not ‘phrenia’ but ‘affective.’ Just change the ‘a’ to an ‘e’ and it becomes ‘effective,’ right?
— Bambang Rudjito

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Assistant Camera
Consulting Editor

Music Composer

Robert Lemelson
Robert Lemelson
Alessandra Pasquino
Dag Yngvesson
Wing Ko
Pietro Scalia
Sandra Angeline
Chisako Yokoyama
Malcolm Cross



  • Win­ner, Award of Excel­lence, The Indie Fest, 2011

  • Spe­cial Men­tion, Caserta Ethno­graphic Film Fes­ti­val, Caserta, Italy, 2012

  • Afflic­tions 2011, Semi-Finalist, Moon­dance Film Fes­ti­val, Boul­der, CO, 2012


  • World Con­gress of Cul­tural Psy­chi­a­try “Men­tal cap­i­tal, men­tal dis­or­ders, resilience and well­be­ing through the life-course” Con­fer­ence, Lon­don, UK, 2012

  • UCLA Indone­sian Stud­ies Con­fer­ence 2012 “Indone­sia in Mem­ory of My Face, Global and Transna­tional Per­spec­tive”, Los Ange­les, CA, 2012

  • Uni­ver­sity of Michi­gan, Cul­ture, Mind and the Brain Con­fer­ence, Ann Arbor, MI, 2012

  • World Men­tal Health Con­gress, Buenos Aires, Argentina, 2013

  • Asian Con­fer­ence on Psy­chol­ogy and the Behav­ioral Sci­ences: “Con­nect­ed­ness and Alien­ation: The 21st Cen­tury Enigma,” Osaka, Japan, 2013

  • International Conference on Psychology in Health, Educational, Social, and Organizational Settings: “Psychology in Changing Global Contexts”, Surabaya, Indonesia, 2013


  • North­ern Cal­i­for­nia Inter­na­tional Film Fes­ti­val, Modesto, CA, 2013

  • Amoroso Teatro Film Fes­ti­val, Italy, 2013

  • San Fran­cisco Shorts Film Fes­ti­val, San Fran­cisco, CA, 2012

  • Afflic­tions 2011, Cinesol Film Fes­ti­val, Har­lin­gen, TX.


  • USC, Mas­ters of Visual Anthro­pol­ogy Sem­i­nar, Los Ange­les, CA, 2011

  • Rut­gers Uni­ver­sity, Com­par­a­tive Reli­gion Class, Newark, NJ, 2012

  • McGill Uni­ver­sity Global Men­tal Health Research Work­shop, Mon­treal, Que­bec, Canada, 2011

  • Cal State Uni­ver­sity Long Beach, Long Beach, CA, 2011

  • Uni­ver­sity of Chicago, Clin­i­cal Ethnog­ra­phy Work­shop, Chicago, IL, 2011